But, sometimes and maybe…

How should I start? Actually the reason I wrote this short blog was because I am feeling rather happy now and the only reason this cheerful feeling emerged was because I received a call from my best friend two days ago. And somehow, it really rejuvenates our friendship that seemed to be drifting apart at one point.

Before this, I was wondering, why did I feel like he was trying hard to keep himself away from me? I tried to figure out what I had done him wrong. But I failed. Something just smelled so wrong to me. If back then, we could send and reply up to 20 sms-es, now 5 sms-es would be more than enough, because if we sent beyond that number, we would end up fighting, or to be precisely, I would end up getting mad with him. I don’t know why do sometimes I feel like he’s being ignorant towards me and some speeches of his can really hurt me. I understand he just wanted me to get real, like how he always used to want. But sometimes my heart just couldn’t take it. But the best thing is, when I’m mad, a little saying of ‘how are you?’ the next day can really cure my frustration. I guess that is why I call him my bestfriend.

However mad I am towards him, he never fails to be my sounding board. He’s the kind of person who listens more than talks. Usually, when we chat, I do almost 80 percent of the talk, while he does more on the listening part. He has been an attentive listener for all my ups and downs. I tried to be his sounding board, but maybe I‘m not the right person for him to share his problem. That is why I consider him a problem-free person because I could hardly hear him sighing. Usually, I’m the one who pops up with a problem, not him. Well maybe that is what I call two-ways communication in my own definition.

Nevertheless, I feel at one point of our life now, our friendship seemed to be sombre. I don’t know, maybe because he is now too busy with work and I ‘m rather free at the moment unlike before that I take matters when he doesn’t bother about me. Or the fact that he is someone else’s makes him hold back a little. But two days ago was my lucky day I told him. I just texted him to enquire something about vcd but he makes a return to my enquiry by giving me a call. And I was shocked, seriously! Yeah, before this I was the one who made all the phone callings because I was the one who needed listening ears. But that day he called me and I am so glad, until now. We chatted for almost one hour, and we laughed, and we talked our hearts out and we shared stories and I smile, until now. I just hope that the phone call could be the starting point for us to get back to normal again.

If he happens to read this post, I just want to say a thousand thanks for making my whole week. I just want to say I’m sorry for always kicking up a fuss for every small little thing that would seem wrong to me. I just want to aplogize for being sharp sometimes. I just want to say that I am here if he needs me as a friend. I just want him to know that however mad I am to him, his simple ‘how are you’ would always bring a smile back to my lips. And I just want him to know, that however ignorant he might be towards me, I will always love him because I may not be his bestfriend but he will always be my bestfriend.